How much longer<\/p>\n\n\n\n
can I get away with this?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Scribbling in notebooks<\/p>\n\n\n\n
mornings of endless coffees<\/p>\n\n\n\n
lost in half worlds of thought<\/p>\n\n\n\n
looking out the window<\/p>\n\n\n\n
at the security guys<\/p>\n\n\n\n
standing 12 hours a day<\/p>\n\n\n\n
sucking on cigs and thumbing<\/p>\n\n\n\n
their phones.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
<\/p>\n\n\n\n
How much longer<\/p>\n\n\n\n
can I get away with this?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Henry Miller sits<\/p>\n\n\n\n
framed on my desk<\/p>\n\n\n\n
at his desk feet up<\/p>\n\n\n\n
getting away with it<\/p>\n\n\n\n
him in Santa Monica<\/p>\n\n\n\n
me, under the volcano<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Antigua, Guatemala.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
<\/p>\n\n\n\n
There’s Brahms<\/p>\n\n\n\n
coming out of the speaker<\/p>\n\n\n\n
and the keyboard waits<\/p>\n\n\n\n
like an obedient dog.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
“I’ll get to the work tomorrow”<\/p>\n\n\n\n
There’s more thoughts to<\/p>\n\n\n\n
attend to<\/p>\n\n\n\n
more dancing in my head<\/p>\n\n\n\n
and I’m planning<\/p>\n\n\n\n
my next novel – how novel!<\/p>\n\n\n\n
<\/p>\n\n\n\n
How much longer<\/p>\n\n\n\n
can I get away with this?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Walking through the world<\/p>\n\n\n\n
like I own it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Schleping from kitchen table<\/p>\n\n\n\n
to poker table to excel tables<\/p>\n\n\n\n
always hungover and<\/p>\n\n\n\n
in love with<\/p>\n\n\n\n
the mere fact I’m here<\/p>\n\n\n\n
that I’m standing<\/p>\n\n\n\n
with nothing really to do<\/p>\n\n\n\n
except<\/p>\n\n\n\n
get away with it.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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