Failing

 

This poem

these words

falsetto

wrong

like Frank Sinatra

breaking into song

half way up

the Amazon.

 

Nothing never seems right

like the i

trying to see itself

or beauty gone

just a little

left of right.

 

We are animals in costumes

made of human skin,

pour another drink

barman

this poem sucks

I have to begin again …..

Fictional Delirium

 

Tin man is pounding

Pippy Longstockings

in the back room.

 

Cat woman’s got

Bart’s tongue.

Inspector Gadget

his zipper undone.

 

The Hulk is in the backroom

doing yoga.

Batman’s thrown off his cape

and wearin’ a toga.

 

Ironman is taking an oil bath

King Kong is watching

The Wrath Of Khan.

Speedy Gonzales he’s long gone.

 

Coyote finally caught his bird.

Next up, Tweety Bird, I heard.

 

The Cookie Monster is getting

ten teeth pulled.

Zorro’s wedding plans are on hold.

Spiderman’s been sold

to a future arachnoid.

 

Indiana Jones I’m told

is in town to discuss the next script

insisting it must contain a larger crypt.

 

Denis is menacing.

Donald’s ducking.

Bozo clowning around.

 

The Littlest Hobo fell

and is hobbling back to his owner

in Hollywood.

The Family Guy’s got a boner

for the girl in

that other show.

 

Zeus is on the loose

and won’t take no for an answer.

I just saw some deers fly by.

Onward Dasher, onward prancer!

 

McGyver’s driving a loaner

and Wonder Woman is wondering

if its worth it

all the animation it takes as

delirious Betty Crocker rebakes …..

Everyday Effluent

 

Piss, shit, sweat, toe jam

Dead skin, dead hair, dead heads

Bad breath, sperm, nail clippings

Snot, mucous, earwax, phlegm

Puke, puss, blood, placenta

Tears, spit, saliva, sound, words, thought

 

It’s surprising how alive

we are

given all the dead

we send out.

 

The other side

 

When I die let it be quick

a surprise

waking up in a strange bed

after a good night out on the town

looking around, smiling

just happy to be here, there

anywhere.

 

Let me not see it coming

when it comes

a bullet to the back of the head

a piano falling from the sky

sweet poison in my drink

death taking me from behind

lights out

its dark

I’m on the other side.

A Literary Autopsy

 

kafka (1)“Now, you have all the vitals.  Josef K., male, 40. Eastern European, middle child, no dependents. Never married, profession: Insurance advocate.

 

“So, let’s get down to work. The first thing you notice immediately are the feet. Big. Too big – a duck out of water, clown’s feet, must have been uncomfortable walking through this world, on cobblestones especially. So too with all the extremities. Notice the ears and how they are reaching out to hear – almost to here! The hands. Too big for gloves. A murderer’s hands, always in need of clutching each other for fear of their fallen fate.”

 

“Now, let’s turn our attention to the eyes which some say are the keyhole of the soul. Dark, deep, moist, cavernous eyes. They have the look of too little sleep, of an active nether world, an always awakening dream. Calculating eyes, always wanting something which the other is unable to give. Long straight eye brows that guard the inner sanctum in a plain yet threatening way.”

 

“Then, there’s the nose. Typical mensch, built to oxygenate the brain.  Solomon’s sniffing snoze. Almost artificial, glued on, inhuman, primitive, as if it were bought from the golem maker along with the clown’s feet, for a show, to beckon some hidden force, then unceremoniously stuck on. A nose that knows.”

 

“Lips. Thin, always dry. Unkissed. Not those of a lover but one who wants to be loved. An intellectual’s lips. Well sealed to prevent secrets from escaping too soon, allowing ideas to be well digested.”

 

“Speaking of the digestive system, let’s now focus on the torso. Truly a perfect ectomorph. Emasculated, a human squirrel full of nervous energy, unsettledness.  But of the mind, not the body. The body wastes away on the stem of the mind.  Thin, wiry, almost consumptive, the torso shows the effects of a high calorie burning organism. A man of immense hunger. A hunger artist. And it is this, I believe to be the key here. The digestive system is or should I say “was”, in a constant state of work, reconstituting experience. Life does not offer this man enough food to exist.”

 

“So, in a word, the cause of death: hunger.  Perhaps he never found the food he liked – a forerunner of a more modern and endemic though less fatal disease known as nausea. A sickness of those who never seem to arrive at port. Which brings us to our next cadaver, a very interesting case, a young man found on a train from Bouville in the Gare de Montmartre in Paris.  DOA, dead on arrival, no apparent trauma though ….”

kafka

 

Modern Hygiene

 

Everyone should have to dig a grave.

 

Choose a spot, break the earth

dig and dig and dig

jump in

dig and dig and dig

cold splashes on the face

bailing water

from the always giving, taking earth.

 

Everyone should have to dig a grave.

 

Then, feeling the arms light

hearing the smuck

as the body lands and settles

seeing how the first shovel full

lands and

illuminates the face

for a moment

though the earth abideth forever.

 

Everyone should have to dig a grave.

 

Digging, digging, digging

then, a few stones on top

a few quiet thoughts and

the wiping of the brow

the sun on the damp soil

finally, the back turned.

 

Everyone should have to dig a grave.

 

The day is coming

when this will be deemed a talent.

Terminal Illness (dis ease)

 

Millions die from it

every day.

 

In bed, on the street

in a car, on their feet

while dancing

while smiling

while asleep …..

 

Millions die from it

every day.

 

On the beach, in the water

eating a peach, having a daughter

in tuxedos

in the nude

in style

in or out of the mood …..

 

Millions die from it

every day.

 

In apartment blocks

to the sound of clock tick tocks

in foreign exotic lands

even when wearing wedding bands

when having a late lunch

when drunk on punch

when mellow

when full of ire

on their birthdays

setting themselves on fire ….

 

Millions die from it

every day.

 

Residents, dog catchers

eye catchers, fetchers too.

The boy next door

one day even you.

 

Millions die from it

every day.

That’s life.

Learning To Lose

 

I always won.

Always.

 

Even when I had lost

I found some way

to fudge it

so I had won.

Always found a way

to the top

of the heap.

 

Now that I have learned

to lose,

I cannot be beat.

My race is now one.

Night Blues

 

It’s 10:00 pm

Sunday, full of rain

John Lee Hooker

on the stereo

crying out from in

like me for my Maybelline

sitting here

picking at my wounds

slowly like a good drunk

letting the taste of the day

drain away

slowly falling back

into the only thing

that is true, the night

and sleep

where better dreams of Maybelline

‘ll have to do.

Taoist ideogram

 

There is a movement

that doesn’t move.

 

There is a wind

that is still.

 

There is black

that dresses in white.

 

There is a yes

that means no.

A stop sign

that says go.

An earth

that is a grain of sand.

A boy

that has always been a man.

A death

that always lives.

A thing outside us

unknown

that always gives.

 

What makes anything right?

 

I, I undying in this necessary fight

can do what I wish

in travail, in delight.