You Don’t Have To

You can always say no

You don’t have to swallow that last bite.
You don’t need to look up her skirt.
You don’t got to buy that Lexus
or tell that girl you love her.

Romeo loved Juliet.
But he coulda said no
but he didn’t
‘nd where did that get him.

You can always say no.

You don’t have to run, swallow or take it up the
You don’t need to go, follow or give it a go
You don’t go to follow that well trod path
or say you’re doing well.

You can always say no.

Just turn around.
Just turn it off.
Just look away or
dive on in.

But whatever you do
don’t do it to squire, to nod, to acquiese.
Do it to confirm – who you be
Do it to get you where you are meant to be
Do it to make them ashamed
the ones who ask you to do it.

You don’t have to do it.

Almost Heaven

It’s been 6 hours now
no electric
so calm
almost like things were meant to be
no internet noise
no TV selling me stuff
just the vultures overhead
keepin’ watch
and the always wind
a pleasant roar
up my unders
as I sit here in the hammock.

Reminds me of when
I was a kid
newspaper in hand
cleaning the kerosene lamps
one by one
while dreaming of African adventures
or building a battery powered radio
of my own.

Almost heaven. Almost.
Or the garden of Eden
except
I’ve got mangoes here
no apples
and no worries
of a god
I’ve arm wrestled to death long ago
many drunken nights ago.

Time for a warm beer.
They aren’t so bad
said my beloved Hrabal
rubbing his bald head
years ago in some other paradise.
Not so bad.
Better a warm beer than
a cold German woman.

My beer is gone.
So too heaven.
The hydro’s back on.
The man has got his act together
and in the kitchen
murder is taking place
as the blender roars.

Damn.
I wish some people
had a plug I could pull out.

To A Forgotten Czech Jew, 1936

“I do not find a way to reach the hearts of men.”
– suicide note, Stefan Lux

It was over so quick.
One bang!
Forgotten so quick
just another event
in the League of Nations,
the next day
after the blood had been
mopped away …..
they went on amending
stupending, pretending
to be building
a better world
mindless of the message
you hurled
among their well-fed midst.

Stefan. Let me say
that at least I
a bastard Jew
so far away
in time and place
still see that bright light
shining.
There was no waste.
The torch of those who care
burns on
though the pigs at the trough
plod on
this alone matters —
to see what is coming
and to scream
though the whole world believes
the wolf has no teeth
to yell with the desire of David
crazed at the indifference
of middle class
who now can only hate
those who look just enough
like them.

Stefan. Know I
will too one day burn
like that bush
those eyes of Moses ….
burn to warn – seeing
as I do the swarm
the glint here in all
their eyes – I a spy
trodding the beastly heart
of man, governed man
knowing well
their refining ways
as they build a better world
sugared just right to swallow,
a better world, meaning
a better way to do away
with
the Other
those who look just enough like them.

A Boy Named Sue

I am different.

These are the words
each great one hears
or if not the words
the feelings of them thereof.
 
Socrates, Napoleon, Li Po
Christ, Marilyn, Van Gogh
Little Richard, Picasso
maybe YOU?
All the great ones
have this call cursing through
their all too human veins.
 
I am different.
 
Doesn’t matter
you don’t get the girl
your spat on, kicked down
no food on the table
you aren’t able ….
YOU are still great
in the sum of that difference.

Will You Be My Yoko Ono

 

Will you be my Yoko Ono

feeding me tangerine slices and cups of tea

staying in bed, laughing with me

while I write absurdities

that might light up this

too dark world?

 

Will you be my Yoko Ono

grow your hair long

wear printed summer dresses

and draw love in the sand

that is our time here together

while I dance and cuss

this world not enough?

 

Will you be my Yoko Ono

there when the gun goes off

proud and true

to something larger than us

lifting your skirt

in memory

while I sing somewhere else on?

You Only Get One Go Around

You only get one go around.
 
I’m a few days over 56
and everything
morning, noon n’ night
smells of death.
This ain’t no Oz Dorthy.
 
And I think of what
I wanted to be …..
to see, to feel, to touch, to do
and there’s just too much to count
or recount.
 
My $70 bottle of wine is done
and I keep trying to forget
that I’ve already won.
What makes me urge for more?
 
I’m down to my last $200,000.
Frozen
like a mother forlorned
I wonder why I bother
to make the coffee I make
each morning
as I ache
to where
I don’t know.
 
I’m 56 and
wear my pants rolled.
I feel old.
As only
one so in love with youth
can do
‘nd I think of Li Po
on the boat
gently rocking
drinking his wine.
I think of Prince.
I’m just a few years behind
‘nd
Amadeus
I got 20 god damn years on him
‘nd
it doesn’t add up
to that which I want to be.
 
The crickets this night
they chirp.
I’m glad I can hear
instead of see.
This ain’t no Hollywood Clint.
You only get one go around.
No applause.
No retakes.
No credits.
No hims ‘n haws.
Just the silence of
well placed laws
‘nd
then it’s over – my god. Thank god.

Waking Up

Poetry is hunger and protest.
Not pretty sounds
but a howl, a scowl
a wake up call for a drunk
in a hotel with
pretty lies and lights
and a roulette table
that never pays out but
keeps going round and round and round .
 
Poetry is a cry, a picture
that hopes to make the world
ashamed
that hopes to make the world
– even one man
come out of that hotel
and into the sunlight
of acceptance
and each moment thereafter
be good
and each day thereafter
have a thought of the good.
 
Poetry is one hand slapping
the feckless face of man unkind.

Possession

My dog is possessed.

It’s HIS bone.

 

He now sits outside, day and night

one eye closed, one eye open

his prized possession in reach.

 

For him

possession is 100% of the law.

Walking near

THE bone

gets you a low, low

groooooooowl

“It’s mine”!, he says.

 

He’d make a good capitalist.

Just imagine if he had an army!

So many more bones, all his!

How many more bones of his victims

piled up

cherished and possessed

day and night

while all the other dogs

in the neighborhood

wet, wanting, outside

dream of more.

Jingle Jangle

“I wanna wreck my stockings in some jukebox joint” – Joni Mitchell
 
I wanna bite off more
than I can chew.
Cookies, ice cream, chocolate cakes
whatever it takes ….
do and do and then undo.
I wanna bite off more
than I can chew.
 
I wanna run myself ragged
jingle, jangle
will be my only wealth.
Cars, cigars, drunken wakes
whatever it takes,
gulp, burp and whistle.
I wanna bite off more
than I can chew.
 
I wanna get lost in a
city in full view.
Streetcars, bums, Picassos and fakes
whatever it takes…..
cut through, cut off, renewed.
I wanna bite off more
than I can chew.

After Math

They don’t know shit.
 
Monday morning quarter backs
IMF monocled flunkies
I told you so s
The next President
Critics, commentators
preachers, prognosticators
weathermen
the girl next door
 
They all saw it coming ….
 
“I knew one day he’d shoot up that school”
 
“I could have told you that it would be the Lakers in 6”
 
” Was plain for all to see – one day he’d beat the shit out of her”
 
“Saw it a mile away – those bank failures.”
 
So many experts in the field of
human tragedy and
after the fact
but
where were they before
while the demented lady cried “fire!”
in the dining car?
 
They don’t know shit.
All they are good at is after math.